I'm talking to you because I don't want to tell anyone else. My closer friends don't understand, well they do but I don't know..it's embarassing and I don't like it. I want to friends with my ex boyfriend again because we had a bad break up and one of my friends asked him if he wanted to talk and he said 'no she's weird' and nothing she could say could convince him otherwise..'I've been out with her,I know what she's like' well I know what HE'S like, he cheated on me, accused me of having sex with a friend and annoyed me non stop because I wasn't even sure if I liked him, but now he seems so much more comforable with himself, he's matured and I want to know him..but he doesn't want to know me..after all that he has done..I mean yeah I wasn't exactly nice to him after he accused me of having sex with a FRIEND but I mean..what did he expect?Urgh, there's nothing I can do or say because normally I would talk to him on msn but he deleted me ages ago..I don't know why, it was him who pestered me! Or so I thought.. I can't just go up to him in school..what can I say to him? Basically he's hurt me a lot. Maybe it is my fault, maybe I did act like a bitch, but he didn't even trust me, now I'm just ''weird'' to him. Also, I think one of his friends is really cute and would like to get to know him better but then the friend suddenly thought I fancied him! ( someone must've missunderstood me and been pathetic enough to go saying that) and I'm sure they've discussed me and I'm just weird, you know? too weird to even think about talking to.And it really really hurts. I'm sorry for this whole long thing, no-one will read it anyway, I mean it's me grovelling on deviantart (as usual because I usually only come on when I feel bad, trust me I'm no depressed or anything ) so yeah..